I Wait

“ I wait on you, expecting your breakthrough, for your word brings me hope . . . I long for you . . .” Ps. 130:5,6

I am not necessarily waiting on anything in particular, but it still feels like I am in a waiting room of sorts.

Ironically, there are many things in my natural life that I am waiting for. I am waiting for the certainty of a permanent and a long-term home to fall into place. I am waiting for more things to fall into place at work so that the pressures will lessen just a bit. I am waiting for the holidays to come so that I can be surrounded by my family again. I am waiting for new doors to open so that I can live more fully in my passion. I am waiting for other doors to be completely closed so that what needs to be behind me can be behind me. Now that my daughter has her license, I am often waiting for her to come home at night and have assurance that she is safe.

Within all of these natural areas of waiting, I am so thankful that worry and despair is being held at bay.

I know that the greater reality is that I live in a waiting room where my spiritual self awaits and senses more and more breakthrough - and unseen presence and power.

It is a place of longing and trust - simple and quiet expectancy.

The dictionary offers several definitions of wait. To wait is to stay where one is or delay action until a particular time or something else happens. To wait is to remain stationary in readiness or expectation.

It strikes me that there is a giving up of control in the process of waiting.

Waiting is not lazy or inactive. Rather, perhaps, waiting is the hardest and the most strenuous work one’s soul will ever do. Restraint and longing takes unwavering and unmatched strength. My soul is waiting for nothing in particular, but I sense that resting and waiting is a beautiful place to be. This is a waiting room of openness. It is a place where I welcome new thoughts, beliefs, ideas, and horizons.

This is a waiting room where Hope is key. This is a waiting room where the wonder and mystery of the Creator God is front and center.

“Keep hoping, keep trusting, and keep waiting on the Lord, for he is tender hearted, kind, and forgiving. He has a thousand ways to set you free.” Ps. 130:7

In this waiting room, barriers to true life and freedom are gently removed. False narratives are replaced with that which is true.

Rescue and freedom.

Joy and peace.

Settledness and confidence within the self.

What barriers exist in your life and heart and mind that are keeping you from true life and freedom?

What barriers exist in your life that cause you to garner control and resist mystery?

What does your soul long for? Are you willing to wait with openness and trust?

Let us be active in waiting.

Trust. Search. Listen. Be.